I guess I should learn to expect saddness and disapointment.
It was never going to happen.
Why do people keep telling me that "You will find somone, somday" Then why does it seem that everbody else had found their somone already while I'm left in the dust forgotten and unwanted.
Life is a cruel thing
It temps you with forbidden emotion and then crumbles it in front of you when you think your so close to achieving the goal you spent so much time with.

Life has fianly rewarded my efforts, Progression has been made.
Not been this pleased in years.
She said yes!
Light can be seen now where darkness once ruled
I just hope that I don't screw things up, I dont want to lose this, not now, not after all I've been through.
Poetry is still being written and I hope that veiwers will tell me what they liked and what didn't work so well.
There is hope for part of my sanity yet.

I must scratch another mark in my wall of failings.
Why do I continue with these's ventures?
It will not stop. These emotions Why?
I must Burn
I must fail
I have returned to drink to try and drown my despair.
A bottle of whiskey in the evenings followed by varous other alchahols during the day.
But who cares really?
Why do I try when life is not going to reward my efforts?
I hate the way this works
There is no more hope, for Life or love
Not for me.

The only important question in life.

Is anybody out there?

Why does failure only follow those who try and avoid it?, constantly life throws you trial after trail and you deal with them in the best possible way but still the outcome is downed with failure.

If life is so worth living why must the powerful be sunted? why must those who seek the greater good be punished if there methods are seen as sick, twisted and evil? Is everyone blind to the truth?

The light of the world is blinding. and it falls apon the few who live in darkness to watch over the light dwelers and silently protect them from themselves.

Always the best protection is silence and the rifle which lies beneth your bed.

Light dwelers who read this make no mistake, I am always there, always watching and always killing myself to save the darkness from coming into the light.

End Transmission

ok time to update

playing call of duty 4 on the xbox at the moment and to say its a hell of a game, it fits my style of play it caters for snipers like me very well indeed. i have become very obsessed with keeping my accracy at the top of my leaderbord.
just about to do with my stupid maths homwork horrible subject. well see you all later